Joshua Hagler
“I began pulling loose planks out of the cellar hole . . . for all the
world as if I had some real purpose or intention. It was difficult
work, but I have often noticed that it is almost intolerable to be
looked at, to be watched, when one is idle. When one is idle and
alone, the embarrassments of loneliness are almost endlessly
compounded. So I worked till my hair was damp and my hands
were galled and tender, with what must have seemed wild hope,
or desperation. I began to imagine myself a rescuer. Children had
been sleeping in this fallen house. Soon I would uncover the rainstiffened
hems of their nightshirts, and their small, bone feet, the
toes all fallen like petals. Perhaps it was already too late to help.
They had lain under the snow through far too many winters, and
that was the pity. But to cease to hope would be the final betrayal.”
–Marilynne Robinson, Housekeeping